"well I've been lookin really hard and I'm trying to find a job..."

'...but it just keeps getting tough everyday'

Well, to be fair, I have not been trying too hard to find me a new job. But it is getting tougher everyday, so I hear. However, I am rather optimistic about becoming reaquainted with my last place of employment. If it were not for this darn economic hiccup then I would be in the money. I would be swimming with oppertunities in a sea of success.

It's a shame that I came back when I did. Someone stole the spirit from this town and hid it far, far underground. It's a shame it came out this way but I'm not affraid. My friends are more my friends. My family is still tolerable but they wear on me. I wonder how much time I have left to kick around this town before it all goes down south again.

I've been back for almost a month. A long month it has been, doing nothing but breathing, spending what money there is left. A month too long in my opinion. The honeymoon is almost over, I fear divorce is on the way but here is the new game-plan for 2009.....

-to wake up every morning and say 'fuck you 2008, I ain't pickin up the shit you left behind, I was in a different continent'
-to get back to work and raise up enough funds for the new campaign to begin in summer '09
-head out again to another part of the world, but this time to work... hence I will be making money while on the road....
-head back home near the end of 2009 to see family and friends then obtain a job on a cruise ship
-quickly overcome my fear of water/open ocean/ undersea animalia
-after my contract is up I will head to the mystical lands of India where I will find my soul in the year 2010....

Sounds like a plan... I love how minimalist it is and how forward everything seems to be... On paper it makes sense... Good, GOOOOO TEAM!

But tomorrow I have class from 10-12. My heart is not in it. My heart beats for this make-shift plan overhead. A wise man once told me that to follow your heart means that you disregard the common sense provided by your brain..... that wise man was me... but It sounded much better when I said it years ago...

adios for now... graciously yours,
M. j . Van D

Happy New Year....

Now that I am out of my annual New Year's Day coma I can start this year properly...

I have my resume all ready... class starts on monday... wowzers.. Nothing has changed.. I'm back into this society, at least for a few more months... I'm going send out resumes like anti Bolshevik propaganda ... hop aboard a helicopter and drop these letters down over my sleeping town...

but what is there to do here? i think the air port is the best bet... get a part time job here and there... maybe get a hold of reduced flights across the world, so i can take off to india... mmmm one day ...one day..